MY JOURNAL

I have a memory from so many years ago that I have never forgotten. It impacted me so immensely that when I remember it today it seems so vivid and so clear it is like it occurred yesterday.

This morning I bought myself roses. Beautiful pink expensive long stem roses. When the woman in the shop told me they cost £2.50 a stem I hesitated, I started to look around the shop and even looked in the ‘sale bin’ of old 1 week old flowers for £5 a bunch.

Everywhere I look now there seems to be some sort of weight loss program being offered or the perfect high-intensity exercise class that will burn off the most amount of fat and calories in the quickest possible time.

Yesterday my beautiful older sister came to see me. We are close me and my sis, we always have been. And even though she is 5 years older than me it has always felt like we are twins…. I guess we are……twins of the soul.

A week ago I never would have imagined that I would be here, writing this article on my experience of miscarriage but I am and it has been a tremendously humbling experience.

I went to a Gabby Bernstein event on Friday night. To be very honest I had never heard of her before and when I was offered some free tickets to go along I thought why not!

So as I get ready to teach another round of my 6 week course “Transform Your Diet, Transform Your Life” this week I have been reflecting a lot on the invaluable importance of our eating habits and How We Eat vs What We Eat.

Over the past week I have been struggling with a huge loss of confidence and an immense amount of insecurity. I’m not entirely sure why or where it came from, what I do know is that it has haunted me ruthlessly.

Our cravings are vital pieces of information and yet more often than not we ignore them, judge them and bat them away. Causing them to become bigger and more ferocious.

Well Happy New Year to you all! Here we are, at the forefront of a brand new year, with a big open space of unknown ahead of us! Such a wonderful time to tap in to the limitless possibilities that are available and also a little bit scary too.

This week I’ve been reflecting a lot on the importance of feeling and expressing ALL our emotions. I watched this really beautiful cartoon with my daughter recently called “Inside Out” and it is all about what really goes on inside our head and how important it is to feel all our emotions.

I’ve been reflecting a lot this week on how important it is to focus on being loving to myself rather than any kind of pushing or striving to be ‘healthy’. As some of you know with my daughter having been sick the past few weeks and with my current crazy work schedule, I have gone a little into survival mode and I’m feeling pretty exhausted.